This week I've been a baking machine. I think it helps me stay in the holiday spirit and not be totally depressed. I can't help but being sad most days, and yesterday was right up there. But I'm feeling good today so we'll see if this mood manages to last the day or if it's going to falter at some point.
Yesterday was hard. We had gotten in a check from the government for our HST and decided to get small gifts for family members. We couldn't decide on what to get Polar Bear's dad so we got a nice table frame and put a picture of Cole's foot and our hands on one side and one or our wedding pics on the other. It looks really nice but trying to get the pictures ready was hard. It meant I had to go through the pics from NILMDTS, which are beautiful but I totally avoid doing being they make me sad. I keep thinking one day I'll get them printed for me and make a scrapbook, or more like finish the scrapbook that I had started for him before he was born. In it all there is is his ultrasound pics. I have everything in boxes and around to put in it but just can't bring myself to go through it.
My husband thinks I'll never get it done. I may after this baby's born.... or I may ask a friend to do it for me... or at least help me do it... I don't know. I feel I should do it myself and that I'm letting Cole down in some way if I don't but at the same time I have such a hard time looking and going through the stuff that I'm not sure I'll be able to do it.
I'll have to wait on that, maybe in time I'll be able to tackle that project. Maybe.
For now it's cookies! Today's plan is sugar cookies... homemade pizza pockets... and tea biscuits! WOOT! Happy baking everyone!
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