My dog the wimp

Yup, my dog is a wimp. I have tried to break his wimpyness over the past few months, but today it has been confirmed that I have failed miserably.

On our walk today, or should I say attempt at a walk today, my dog only made it about 5 minutes away from the house. Now I know it's cold, and I've even seen some of the horrid white stuff falling from the sky this morning, but still... 5 minutes. We got across the street onto the path we normally take that goes by a park, he sniffed some trees and then started pulling back towards the house. Now my dog is a small dog so I could have forced him to keep walking, but why bother, if I would have he only would have started whining. So we made it 5 minutes out and turned around and came back home. Once he could see the house he got all excited and started jumping up and down at the end of the leash as if saying "come on, hurry up, it's cold out here". He ran up to the door, and sat all nicely, waiting for me to open the door and take off his leash, then proceeded to RUN LIKE A MAD FOOL around the house for 5 minutes. I really think he was trying to tell me that he didn't need to go for a walk, that he was quite content running around the house where it's warm.

I really think my dog thinks I was crazy for trying to make him walk in the cold. He has an aversion to any kind of crappy weather (heck you have to force him to pee in the rain) but seriously. My dog is a wimp, so be it... maybe I'll have to buy him a sweater or something. Maybe I'll become one of those dog owners who puts him in a little jacket... maybe... gah, this is like another circle of hell, the circle of small dogs in people clothes... damn it I may have to give in. Well, good luck to all you wimpy dog owners, the winter has only started!

Oh yee writing do not foil me!

I have started to brain storm and am really liking my ideas to create this story I've decided to attempt. I say attempt because I have been unable, in the past, to actually write a full fledged story. I tend to get about a third of the way through and get caught up in the traps of past writer. What I mean by that is I re-read my story and it tends to be similar enough to other stories I've read that I get discouraged and stop writing it. So I have decided to attack this story in a different means... I am actually going to plot at least some of it out. I've been sitting here for the past hour trying to sort my thoughts and ideas and see if they will be conducive to a single story. But I've hit a dilemma... and that's the BAD GUY dilemma.

Should I have a bad guy?? I know everyone will say that in most stories you need an antagonist to "fight" your main character or group of characters, but is this truly necessary?? Should I really have a bad guy or should I try something new... maybe a bunch of good characters fighting against each other for something... hmmm... that might work, or be TOTALLY LAME! I can't decide. Before I can continue my writing from where I am I need to decide on this main point and what the main scheme of the whole thing is (or at least what the main scheme for the start of the book is). It seems ridiculous for me to try and fight the tried and tested ways of writing. It's been used for generations... the them versus us thing... but what if I don't want a "them"??? What else could I use. From every book I've read there's always something that the main characters are "fighting" against, and being I'm planning on this book being within the Sci-Fi/Fantasy -ISH (as everything I tend to write is) Genera then there's usually a reason... or a person/group behind the reason that the main party is doing what it is doing. But what is that reason??? Why??? I'm tired of it always being a "bad"guy... can't there be something else???? I know some authors don't use a bad guy but an event or a job or a something... but I can't seem to figure out that something.

So I'll keep with my brain-storming... and see if we can manage to storm the castle and free the princess of thoughts in my head. Maybe once she is free then I'll be able to actually get on with this story... Woot!

Tis a day

So I guess it's Son's week this week... what that means is there's a massive spam (mostly by my family...aunts, uncles, etc and a few others) about how precious our sons are... BLAH BLAH BLAH! This just pisses me off. I don't really know why, but it does. I think part of it is the inner cranky depression I've hit, but I can't seem to deal with it right now. I have temporarily hidden most of my family's and a few friends walls on Facecrack so that they don't constantly pop up. I have one aunt that's the worst. I know she doesn't mean anything towards us, but it's constant... so instead of getting frustrated or cranky I decided to hide her profile, and I may not un-hide it when I fix the others next week. We'll seee...

On another note all together, I am debating on trying my hand at writing. I have a 4 page intro so far and am at the point where I need to sit my arse down and figure out my story arc and characters. I get tired of all the same cookie cutter stories... mostly those based loosely on WOW, Tolkien and other such sources. I don't want to get into an EPIC about the horrors of good vs evil, I don't know where I want to go. Part of me is thinking of throwing a geek... as in gamer geek... as in "I magic missile the dark!" (If any of you know the reference LOL) and bringing him into a real magic world and seeing if he'll survive. I know he (or she, haven't really decided) would have to survive but I have an idea on how to bring him in... YAY demon summoning! LOL... we'll see... not sure if it would work. I'll have to concept it out and get back to you.

I've noticed that every few days I talk about starting something new. Maybe this is a bad thing, maybe it's a good thing... at least it keeps me from sitting on my but doing diddly-squat! I have to work on my crochets for Christmas... they make me want to go "MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH... It's ALIVE!!! " But seriously... should I make a Cthulhu Kitty LOL.... I know someone who would love it... hmmmmmmmm.... It makes me all giggly inside! I'll let you know, after Christmas... or at least after I make them and give them out.

So the plan turns into... Crocheting and baking, during the day (also the usual Cleaning and Dog walking) and then at some point as my hands hurt from the crochet try my hand at writing some pages (or at least figuring out a story) and while doing all that continue to write on here and check my facebook and email and play Disgaea 3 when I can't handle anything during the day, and at night play WOW with my husband... hmmm how did I ever fit a full time job in there LOL. Just wait till the baby's here, it'll even get better!

So have a great day all of you who over plans your days and never actually succeeds at any of it! I will be joining your ranks soon!

Should I ... or shouldn't I

So I have done it... again... I broke down and tried to create a character with my husband on WOW. I know the evilness of the whole MMORPG world but still, this may give us something to do together when he gets laid off for the winter. So here is my ode to WOW, thank you William Shakespear!

To play or not to play, that is the question...
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The Slings and arrows of outrageous resistance
Or to take arms against a sea of aliance
And by opposing end them? To die; to respawn
No more; and by a respawn to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That gaming is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be leveled. To die, to respawn;
To respawn; perchance to level: ay, there's the hax;
For in that likelihood of death what levels may come
When we have shuffled out of this lower zone,
Must give us pause: there's the addiction
...

OK, I'll stop... I'm lame LOL. I could continue with the whole thing but I thought I'd save you to pain of my WOWing!

So to play... we will have to see... as is life!

A 23rd of a day

So we have come to the 23rd of the month again! Oh how I hate yee!

I try really hard not to focus on dates and time periods and things that have past, but the 23rd is always a hard day to get through. Sometimes I have a great 23rd, sometimes it's totally crap... I don't really know what today holds in store for me, but here we are again, the 23rd.

I won't be one of those people who every month say... "Oh my baby would have been... months/years/etc" but the first year tends to speed by and your like.. Really? Already?

10 months... yup.... 10 months since Cole was born. We spent a hard (I will not lie and say as some "a wonderful whatever time") yes a hard 28day in Kingston general hospital. We had good days where our hopes were through the roof and bad days, where they came crashing down around us in a pile of broken glass ready to cut with any move you make. 28 days.

I can't say I've handled the 10 months so far completely well, but I also can't say I gave up and didn't handle it at all. I would like to believe I did well, all things considering, and that this pregnancy is whatever deity's way of trying to help. Of creating a new hope. Of being... but I can't help but wish that those 28days would have ended differently. They would have ended better.

So happy 23rd, hopefully yours is good. I will probably go out and by some candy and a bottle of Pepsi. We'll see, maybe this will be one of those great 23rds... or maybe not... we won't know till the day is over.

Cookies, Cakes, Candies oh my!

So I have been home, as those of you who read this know, everyday most weeks by myself. I don't think this is conducive to a healthy lifestyle. I love being home, most of the time, but to be left by yourself with your thoughts ALL THE TIME, may not be quite so healthy. So in the place of sitting here wallowing in my own grief, sorrow and fears I have decided to attempt (and I say attempt because most of the time that's all we can ask for) to be slightly productive in some way. I have started crocheting amigurumi for Christmas for friends of mine. I have been getting into a video game called Disgaea 3, which is very cute and appeals to the little Goth girl in me. And Now... my newest adventure that I'm thinking of trying ... Baking.

Now don't get me wrong, I have never failed at the baking attempts in the past, but they are usually only consisting of Breads. Being I love bread that has never been a problem, but now I will try some other stuff. My mom had visited me this weekend and gifted me the two staple cook books she used when I was a kid. This could either result in VERY GOOD food, and possibly a very fat baby belly, or could result in a lot of recipes being filled under G along with the food LOL. As testers I will be probably using my Polar Bear (my husband) and our room mate. If they don't die or throw up I will consider that a success!

Now the only issue with baking is supplies... bowls I have, mixers I have, pans and containers to cook in I mostly have... Ingredients... Now that's another story all together! This means I will need to make an extensive list of baking ingredients that I need and figure out a way to purchase them on my extremely limited budget! I am hoping this will be doable... I don't see why not, but I fail to have even the most basic of ingredients like Flour and Baking Powder/Soda... I also don't own any measuring spoons, but my mom didn't when I was a kid either, we just used regular spoons and approximated our ingredients accordingly,... so that should be fine.   

Now, out of the 2 well loved books, I need to decide what it is I want to make... or at least start with. I will probably make bread (cause I always make bread) so that I can eat it while I'm making other stuff. What this means is that no one else will probably get to eat any of the bread being most of it will be in my stomach! LOL! I want sugar cookies, gingersnaps, apple crisp....mmmmmmm apple crisp........ and I haven't decided further than that. Now doing these cooking attempts also means my house will be filled with food that I shouldn't eat regularly... so I will probably have to pawn off some of them to other people... whether that happens or not, we will see...

So wish me good luck, and if you see a large explosion of flour and baking ingredients coming from the NW side of Guelph follow the words of the Hitchhikers Guide to the galaxy... DON`T PANIC! Instead come over and have some treats, you may have to deal with me saying over and over again "It's Alive!!", but other than that I'll be fine :)