Yesterday I had an absolutely shitty ass day. So today I decided to try and cheer myself up, even if it just means not actually dealing with anything. I did laundry, and groceries, and rented 3 movies. I've watched the first one (called Mic Macs) which was done by the same guy who did Amelie, so it's in french with subtitles and cute. A light-hearted feel good kinda movie, just what my mood called for.
Yesterday it was like no matter how I tried I couldn't shake the blues. And every time I almost got them shaken something would happen or remind me of last year. I found out a friend of mine's sister-in-law had her twins at 24weeks... lost one of them... and the other is fighting for life in the NICU! It sucks... I feel her pain on both fronts!
I'm just missing my little boy. I know in some ways I should be happy that I'm pregnant and this little on is healthy and should have no complications (keeping fingers, toes and eyes crossed) but I can't help missing the one I barely got to meet!
Hopefully this Crap will be better than last!
Here are two pictures of the one we lost, and who my heart's breaking everyday this month remembering the roller coaster ride and the time we got to spend with him. As fleeting as it was....
^ Cole at 2 days in the NICU in Kingston
\/ Cole at 28 days, the morning he passed in the NICU in Kingston
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