I have decided to admit I have a slight obsession...
It's not with knitting or crafting or drinking or writing or even doing art....
It's with watching movie previews. I don't know what it is but I love watching movie previews. If you could go back in my web browsing history you would see a STUPID amount of times I am on iTunes Movie Trailers! I think I'm on this site at least once a day checking to see if there are any new previews or new anythings added. I will watch a preview for a movie I'm interested in sometimes multiple times. I think I love the previews sometimes more than the movie... which is sad. To me the anticipation for a new movie coming out is exciting. I'm excited just for it to come to theater... even if I never plan to go and see it in the theater... I love knowing when they are supposed to come out and what the variations of different trailers show. I watch the previews for almost EVERY movie that has a trailer on this site... and if it's coming to theater it usually is on this site at some time...
This is probably my strangest obsession. I check the trailers, then check the Cineplex website to see what's out this week. I don't actually make it to most movies. Before I had a baby my husband and I would see lots of movies. We would go every week to every other week just to see anything. We love the bad movies, the blow up bad guy kill kinda movies, anything action or SciFi or Fantasy. We would go to the movies not to see the movie but to do something. I love sitting in a theater as it gets dark and the movies about to start and of course I hate missing the previews...
Because although I have watched them a million times at home, I still love previews :)
Jun 1, 2011
May 26, 2011
New Job
So my husband may actually have a new job starting in the next few weeks :). I am very excited about this. It's steady year round work, good pay and fairly decent hours. It means he's working afternoons but gets done a little early on Fridays and there's a lot of opportunity for over time. What's also a bonus is he's pretty much in charge of the tire shop... so it means he gets the joys of working by/for himself without the headache of doing any paperwork. He gets a great hourly pay and has every weekend off. The only downside is we may have to move to KW. Which isn't really that bad. He'll be taking care of 2 yards, one in Waterloo and one in Cambridge so Kitchener makes the most sense being it's in the middle. Now we won't be moving till this time next year but it means I can start feeling out where we would like to move. What would be awesome is to get all our debt caught up or paid off so that we can start saving for a house.... yay. It also means we will need to get another vehicle in the next few months. This is scary to add more to our debt but it's also nice because I will get the new vehicle and he gets the Versa (which I love but just isn't practical with a car seat and stuff).
What this also can mean is that I won't have to panic about working. He will be making enough money that we can be comfortable with just him working so he'll get to claim me as a dependent for the next few years. What's also nice is if we move to KW there's a lot more office jobs there, so when I do decide to go back to work I can probably find something closer to home, and being he's working afternoons, there will always be one of us home, so I won't have to pay for care! YAY! Or if I need care it should be for only afterschool... 2pm till I get done :). Which is a lot better than full time daycare.
So that's my exciting news at the moment. I'll let you know how it progresses... also, I'm still only 9pgs into the writing... I'll let you know when I'm further :)
What this also can mean is that I won't have to panic about working. He will be making enough money that we can be comfortable with just him working so he'll get to claim me as a dependent for the next few years. What's also nice is if we move to KW there's a lot more office jobs there, so when I do decide to go back to work I can probably find something closer to home, and being he's working afternoons, there will always be one of us home, so I won't have to pay for care! YAY! Or if I need care it should be for only afterschool... 2pm till I get done :). Which is a lot better than full time daycare.
So that's my exciting news at the moment. I'll let you know how it progresses... also, I'm still only 9pgs into the writing... I'll let you know when I'm further :)
May 18, 2011
The Rain
The rain is one of those good and bad things lately. In all honesty I've always enjoyed a good thunderstorm. The heavier the rain the more I like it. But this constant gloom that has taken Southern Ontario is driving me nuts.
I'm all up for a good gothy gloom, but it's supposed to be spring going into summer. This is the time that I want to feel up and happy and fresh. I want to feel like I'm getting motivated to become an active participant in my life again. I find that being cooped up in the house is not successful for a good start. I've been enjoying getting out of the house if only to take the dog for a walk.
I'm now on page 9 going on 10 of my story. I think I've figured out how to do the dialoguing for now. It may need some re-vamping but I want to get the story written then I'll do the editing. I may need to get someone else to do the editing, being I'm terrible at editing my own stuff. At least my story is fairly light hearted and easy going. It will hopefully be fun enough that someone may actually want to read it. lol. I am not expecting miracles in the writing of it. I know some people who write expect their stories/books/etc to actually make it to some sort of publication. I, on the other hand, am just hoping to finish it. If it ever makes it to something fancy, well then bully on me, but I won't hold my breath for that. So for now I will write the story and leave it at that. Being I am only managing a page to 3 when I write, I think this may take some time... as in I don't really know how long. By math logic if I wrote 3 pages a night it would take me apx 33 nights to make 100 pages.... but I know me. I won't manage 1 page a night let alone 3... and if I do, it won't be EVERY night.
So I'll keep writing and seeing where it leads me.
I'm all up for a good gothy gloom, but it's supposed to be spring going into summer. This is the time that I want to feel up and happy and fresh. I want to feel like I'm getting motivated to become an active participant in my life again. I find that being cooped up in the house is not successful for a good start. I've been enjoying getting out of the house if only to take the dog for a walk.
I'm now on page 9 going on 10 of my story. I think I've figured out how to do the dialoguing for now. It may need some re-vamping but I want to get the story written then I'll do the editing. I may need to get someone else to do the editing, being I'm terrible at editing my own stuff. At least my story is fairly light hearted and easy going. It will hopefully be fun enough that someone may actually want to read it. lol. I am not expecting miracles in the writing of it. I know some people who write expect their stories/books/etc to actually make it to some sort of publication. I, on the other hand, am just hoping to finish it. If it ever makes it to something fancy, well then bully on me, but I won't hold my breath for that. So for now I will write the story and leave it at that. Being I am only managing a page to 3 when I write, I think this may take some time... as in I don't really know how long. By math logic if I wrote 3 pages a night it would take me apx 33 nights to make 100 pages.... but I know me. I won't manage 1 page a night let alone 3... and if I do, it won't be EVERY night.
So I'll keep writing and seeing where it leads me.
May 17, 2011
The good, The bad, The cranky
So I was totally going to talk about my barbeque... or rainy day extravaganza... that we had on the weekend. And I may still mention it in passing, but first lets talk about other things.
The Good: I have managed to get myself back into my pre-pre-pregnancy pants! I haven't fit in them in almost 2 years now (with two pregnancies and all). Out of the 3 pairs of pants I have that I'm judging I have managed the low cut ones ('cause the belly goes a little over), and now the higher cut with a little stretch. I only have one more pair to go... the higher cut with no stretch. I am hoping that by the end of summer they will be a success too... YAY!
The Bad: I hate laundry! I have realized that I despise doing laundry in it's full capacity. The problem is that with a baby laundry is an everyday thing, and being I haven't been doing it every day I have quite the pile in my basement. I have to say today was a bad laundry day... Vi went through 4 outfits today, spitting up on one after the other, until I gave up and left her with only a diaper and a bunch of blankets for warmth. I also managed to go through 2 pairs of pants and 2 shirts with the joy of being peed on and spit up on... oh the fun!
The Cranky: My DAUGHTER! When a baby needs to poop or has gas and no matter what you try doesn't settle down, the stress level gets higher and higher. Today it took me quite a few hours and I finally got her to stop crying by laying her on me and giving her her bottle till she decided that sleep was better than eating. Then DID NOT move her to burp her, just held her and rubbed her back. What this means is that when she finally slept I could NOT MOVE. If a baby falls asleep in your arms and cries every time you try and move her, you just stop trying to move her and let her sleep in you arms.
So today was a stressful day. But she is asleep now and so is her Daddy :)
This is another thing I've been dealing with... Side, Back, Belly.
Vi does not sleep on her back... if I manage to get her to sleep on her back it only lasts about 20 to 30 minutes. When I try and prop her on her side she manages to get an arm free and flail it until she moves herself on her belly. So I have given up. She now sleeps almost exclusively on her belly. I know I know... the research says back only. Well my thought is that if so many people survived in past years sleeping on their belly that I'm not going to worry. It just gets stressy when the people go on and on about SIDS and act like you are a bad person for putting your baby on their belly. Well, I've given up on trying her back. She seems happy and it's not like I sleep that soundly anymore anyway lol. She also is now strong enough to turn her head from side to side and push her upper body up with her arms. I also always have her sleeping in our room and her crib is right beside me so I can reach her without getting out of bed. I feel like I'm justifying my decision to people all the time but it's ridiculous. SIDS stands for Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.... what that means is... it happens suddenly without any reason. I truly believe they are grasping at straws on the reasons it happens. I know the whole idea of "why risk it" but if she's happy do I really have to make her unhappy by moving her all the time?
So I hope you all have a nice sleep and hopefully so will I.
The Good: I have managed to get myself back into my pre-pre-pregnancy pants! I haven't fit in them in almost 2 years now (with two pregnancies and all). Out of the 3 pairs of pants I have that I'm judging I have managed the low cut ones ('cause the belly goes a little over), and now the higher cut with a little stretch. I only have one more pair to go... the higher cut with no stretch. I am hoping that by the end of summer they will be a success too... YAY!
The Bad: I hate laundry! I have realized that I despise doing laundry in it's full capacity. The problem is that with a baby laundry is an everyday thing, and being I haven't been doing it every day I have quite the pile in my basement. I have to say today was a bad laundry day... Vi went through 4 outfits today, spitting up on one after the other, until I gave up and left her with only a diaper and a bunch of blankets for warmth. I also managed to go through 2 pairs of pants and 2 shirts with the joy of being peed on and spit up on... oh the fun!
The Cranky: My DAUGHTER! When a baby needs to poop or has gas and no matter what you try doesn't settle down, the stress level gets higher and higher. Today it took me quite a few hours and I finally got her to stop crying by laying her on me and giving her her bottle till she decided that sleep was better than eating. Then DID NOT move her to burp her, just held her and rubbed her back. What this means is that when she finally slept I could NOT MOVE. If a baby falls asleep in your arms and cries every time you try and move her, you just stop trying to move her and let her sleep in you arms.
So today was a stressful day. But she is asleep now and so is her Daddy :)
This is another thing I've been dealing with... Side, Back, Belly.
Vi does not sleep on her back... if I manage to get her to sleep on her back it only lasts about 20 to 30 minutes. When I try and prop her on her side she manages to get an arm free and flail it until she moves herself on her belly. So I have given up. She now sleeps almost exclusively on her belly. I know I know... the research says back only. Well my thought is that if so many people survived in past years sleeping on their belly that I'm not going to worry. It just gets stressy when the people go on and on about SIDS and act like you are a bad person for putting your baby on their belly. Well, I've given up on trying her back. She seems happy and it's not like I sleep that soundly anymore anyway lol. She also is now strong enough to turn her head from side to side and push her upper body up with her arms. I also always have her sleeping in our room and her crib is right beside me so I can reach her without getting out of bed. I feel like I'm justifying my decision to people all the time but it's ridiculous. SIDS stands for Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.... what that means is... it happens suddenly without any reason. I truly believe they are grasping at straws on the reasons it happens. I know the whole idea of "why risk it" but if she's happy do I really have to make her unhappy by moving her all the time?
So I hope you all have a nice sleep and hopefully so will I.
3 Pages
So... 3 pages. That doesn't sound like much but it took me the better part of 2 hours to prepare and write 3 pages... that brings my page total to a whopping 8!
I have now hit a dilema... Dun Dun Dun.... (I love doing that lol).... DIALOGUE.
This issue of Dialogue when writing a story really has me stumped. I'm trying hard not to write like a two year old... "He said blah blah blah, then she said blah blah blah"... GAH! How do you write good convincing dialogue without coming off lame. And how do you make sure your characters have a different voice. And how do I write it so it flows nicely.
This has been the minds dilemma for about 24 hours. I wrote some dialogue and am stumped. I'm also stumped at creating a dialogue between people that doesn't go directly to the point. What I have written I know I'm going to need to change. Now should I leave it and keep writing, and come back to revise it later? Or should I keep tweaking it but suffer with the fact that I may not pass page 8 for a while?
I would guess that continuing to write would be the best method, and when I get more inspired about the depth of the dialogue I should then revise it. Heck I'm sure I'll easily add a page when I revise it, so that will be a whopping 9 instead... oh so close to the elusive page 10.
Now I haven't totally decided the overall length of this story. If it'll be a short story or more novel-ish (or would that be called something else? Maybe a novella??), either way it's difficult to decide. I have most of the plotting for this story, or at least the general idea. But it's my first written story and I always find I lack a bit of immagination.
Well, I'll keep you posted on the intermittent story writing. Other than that my rainy day bbq on the weekend went well. I'll post further on that tomorrow. For now it's late and my bed calls me :)
I have now hit a dilema... Dun Dun Dun.... (I love doing that lol).... DIALOGUE.
This issue of Dialogue when writing a story really has me stumped. I'm trying hard not to write like a two year old... "He said blah blah blah, then she said blah blah blah"... GAH! How do you write good convincing dialogue without coming off lame. And how do you make sure your characters have a different voice. And how do I write it so it flows nicely.
This has been the minds dilemma for about 24 hours. I wrote some dialogue and am stumped. I'm also stumped at creating a dialogue between people that doesn't go directly to the point. What I have written I know I'm going to need to change. Now should I leave it and keep writing, and come back to revise it later? Or should I keep tweaking it but suffer with the fact that I may not pass page 8 for a while?
I would guess that continuing to write would be the best method, and when I get more inspired about the depth of the dialogue I should then revise it. Heck I'm sure I'll easily add a page when I revise it, so that will be a whopping 9 instead... oh so close to the elusive page 10.
Now I haven't totally decided the overall length of this story. If it'll be a short story or more novel-ish (or would that be called something else? Maybe a novella??), either way it's difficult to decide. I have most of the plotting for this story, or at least the general idea. But it's my first written story and I always find I lack a bit of immagination.
Well, I'll keep you posted on the intermittent story writing. Other than that my rainy day bbq on the weekend went well. I'll post further on that tomorrow. For now it's late and my bed calls me :)
May 12, 2011
2 weeks
So it's been almost 2 weeks since I've posted and I have to tell you I'm not doing so hot on the reboot front. I've been dealing a lot with a crazy screaming girl who does not like to settle down between 2 and 6, which puts a hamper in the getting things done category. I've been feeling insanely cluttered lately, in my house, in my stuff and everywhere I go. Part of that is due to baby and dog. It seems like I am unable to sit with the baby without having my sucky dog sitting on or against me too. Add an array of bottles, cups and diaper stuff and it gets to be a lot. I have tried to clean my room MANY times, I get it looking awesome and the next day it seems to explode all over again. My living room's pretty much the same, it becomes spotless and then seems to explode (and don't even get me started with the kitchen). I am starting to get frustrated with those living in my house. It seems like men are incapable of cleaning anything without a woman edging them on. My husband has been pretty good at trying to do the dishes, and between him and the wondrous thing called a dishwasher, that's been pretty successful. But it seems everything else is off limits. I have a room mate and unless his girlfriends around cleaning is not in his vocabulary. Also it seems like other than dishes and the general look men can't seem to clean further. My bathroom is disgusting and since I haven't been able to clean it very often do you think either of them would step up? No.
I think I'm just frustrated because I thought, with the baby here, that they would step up and help out a little more. I guess I should stop assuming that something like that may happen. Instead it's just me trying to do more work on the house, as well as deal with a baby and a dog and the mess that is my house... GAH! I just wish when I clean a room that it would stay clean. All well, I'm as much to blame about the mess as the next person. I just get tired of feeling like people are tisking about the mess when they are unwilling to help do anything about it. I feel like when there is anyone but my husband here they seem to look down at the state of things without realizing the stresses I've been dealing with.
Well I am trying to not use this blog as a bitch fest for my every issue. I seem to have been failing at that. In general everything is going fairly well. I'm home alone most of the time, and am feeling a little secluded by that. Part of it is realizing that my friends are doing stuff and getting together and not inviting me. It's seeming to happen more and more lately. At least this weekend we are hoping to have a barbeque with a bunch of friend :) YAY! I have even bought summery disposable plates :) WOOT! I just hope the weather holds up, they are calling for rain ONLY on the day of the bbq... what's with that! If it rains we are going to try and still have it, it just means I will have a VERY full house, lol. Aside from the seclusion we've been doing okay, Vi is now 9lbs7oz as of last weeks :) She is not so tiny anymore. She's been sleeping longer at night, but is fussing longer about sleeping. So once I finally manage to get her to sleep she's been sleeping an average of 6hrs YAY!!! It's just taking me at least an hour each time to get her to sleep, and she is SO NOT sleeping in the afternoon, and is screaming 'cause she's over tired. GAH! I am still pumping, so she is still getting breast milk, I am starting to get frustrated by it, so it may not last much longer. I really don't want to be pumping through the summer, not fun, but I'll try to keep going as long as possible. Polar Bear is back to work and may have a new job in a few weeks... I'll keep you posted on that :).
On another note, I've been missing Cole a lot these days. I see Vi growing so big and so attentive, she's looking around and interested in things, and I wonder what he would have been like. I'm sad at the idea of not having a boy. I know if I got pregnant again there would be no guarantee of a boy and it would be very stressful, so part of us is not planning on another pregnancy. That makes me sad. We have kind of decided that we will enjoy what we have, but I still feel fail in some ways. But I don't want to risk the possibility of losing another baby due to complications. I'm still upset that I couldn't have a normal pregnancy! I know there are a lot of people out there that are unable to have a normal, and what is normal anyway. But I still feel like I missed something. I've missed some of the excitement and joy of having a pregnancy and a baby. I have never been able to deliver and be able to hold my baby right away, they are always whisked away from me. I don't know if I'm dealing well with this or not. I still feel unable to discuss this with people, it's like the subject gets changed or I don't like making them uncomfortable, so I just keep it to myself. Vi was able to show us just what a healthy baby looks like and just how sick Cole was. This makes me sadder than anything, that we were unable to recognize just how sick he was. ....... yeah....
Well on a happier note. Vi is doing great, she's holding her head up and looks super cute in little dresses and outfits. I'm liking putting her in stuff other than onesies but they are still the easiest. It seems like in no time she'll be boogieing on her own. We have a photo appointment on Sunday to get her some nice pictures done :) Hopefully she'll cooperate and we'll be able to send some out to family and friends.
Well sorry for such a huge post. Hope all is well with you!!!
I think I'm just frustrated because I thought, with the baby here, that they would step up and help out a little more. I guess I should stop assuming that something like that may happen. Instead it's just me trying to do more work on the house, as well as deal with a baby and a dog and the mess that is my house... GAH! I just wish when I clean a room that it would stay clean. All well, I'm as much to blame about the mess as the next person. I just get tired of feeling like people are tisking about the mess when they are unwilling to help do anything about it. I feel like when there is anyone but my husband here they seem to look down at the state of things without realizing the stresses I've been dealing with.
Well I am trying to not use this blog as a bitch fest for my every issue. I seem to have been failing at that. In general everything is going fairly well. I'm home alone most of the time, and am feeling a little secluded by that. Part of it is realizing that my friends are doing stuff and getting together and not inviting me. It's seeming to happen more and more lately. At least this weekend we are hoping to have a barbeque with a bunch of friend :) YAY! I have even bought summery disposable plates :) WOOT! I just hope the weather holds up, they are calling for rain ONLY on the day of the bbq... what's with that! If it rains we are going to try and still have it, it just means I will have a VERY full house, lol. Aside from the seclusion we've been doing okay, Vi is now 9lbs7oz as of last weeks :) She is not so tiny anymore. She's been sleeping longer at night, but is fussing longer about sleeping. So once I finally manage to get her to sleep she's been sleeping an average of 6hrs YAY!!! It's just taking me at least an hour each time to get her to sleep, and she is SO NOT sleeping in the afternoon, and is screaming 'cause she's over tired. GAH! I am still pumping, so she is still getting breast milk, I am starting to get frustrated by it, so it may not last much longer. I really don't want to be pumping through the summer, not fun, but I'll try to keep going as long as possible. Polar Bear is back to work and may have a new job in a few weeks... I'll keep you posted on that :).
On another note, I've been missing Cole a lot these days. I see Vi growing so big and so attentive, she's looking around and interested in things, and I wonder what he would have been like. I'm sad at the idea of not having a boy. I know if I got pregnant again there would be no guarantee of a boy and it would be very stressful, so part of us is not planning on another pregnancy. That makes me sad. We have kind of decided that we will enjoy what we have, but I still feel fail in some ways. But I don't want to risk the possibility of losing another baby due to complications. I'm still upset that I couldn't have a normal pregnancy! I know there are a lot of people out there that are unable to have a normal, and what is normal anyway. But I still feel like I missed something. I've missed some of the excitement and joy of having a pregnancy and a baby. I have never been able to deliver and be able to hold my baby right away, they are always whisked away from me. I don't know if I'm dealing well with this or not. I still feel unable to discuss this with people, it's like the subject gets changed or I don't like making them uncomfortable, so I just keep it to myself. Vi was able to show us just what a healthy baby looks like and just how sick Cole was. This makes me sadder than anything, that we were unable to recognize just how sick he was. ....... yeah....
Well on a happier note. Vi is doing great, she's holding her head up and looks super cute in little dresses and outfits. I'm liking putting her in stuff other than onesies but they are still the easiest. It seems like in no time she'll be boogieing on her own. We have a photo appointment on Sunday to get her some nice pictures done :) Hopefully she'll cooperate and we'll be able to send some out to family and friends.
Well sorry for such a huge post. Hope all is well with you!!!
Apr 28, 2011
Knitting fun
So tonight was knit and chat and I actually managed to mostly finish my second/third project. Why the slash you may say... because it's the third project I've started but the second one I've finished. The second project is a sweater-vest-thingy that I haven't picked up in a few months. I think part of me is just a little more excited to do baby things at the moment, and I know that the stuff for me can wait till later. I only have a limited time to put her into baby stuff, so I'm going to enjoy it :)
I am actually supposed to be working on my taxes, and am very much procrastinating. I have managed to do them once, and forgot something so have to go back and do them all over again. I truly find taxes are a during the day thing, once the sun goes down my math brain starts going to mush! So I will get them done tomorrow, no worries, being both the taxes I'm doing should result in some type of return it's all good :). I really hate doing taxes, I always feel like I'm going to get in trouble even though I'm doing everything right.
Well, I'm off for the night (yeah... right), have a good one
I am actually supposed to be working on my taxes, and am very much procrastinating. I have managed to do them once, and forgot something so have to go back and do them all over again. I truly find taxes are a during the day thing, once the sun goes down my math brain starts going to mush! So I will get them done tomorrow, no worries, being both the taxes I'm doing should result in some type of return it's all good :). I really hate doing taxes, I always feel like I'm going to get in trouble even though I'm doing everything right.
Well, I'm off for the night (yeah... right), have a good one
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